This blog post was not suppose to be about me complaining and it will most probably not be what you would think would be when someone says it is about themselves. Today when I went on facebook I saw some old classmates online and i thought i'd say hi so I did but I waited for their answer which never came and then I realiased that altough everyone said they would miss me or the class would be the same, well to begin with the calss is still the same. I never really had friends but that meant no disapointment or sadness when I realised that i was soon forgotten. I would be surprised if I returned home and they didn't realise i was back. It doesn't hurt me to find out that I never stood out enough to be remembered because even though they have forgotten there will be those who spend their time recreaing moments that I spent with them. Like my family and my closes friends. I have no need to spend my time wondering why oh why will they not speak to me and that is because I have friends who talk to me. If i have to keep chasing them for he friendship then it's not much of a friendship is it.
While I have been here, I have had the opportunity to see another opinion of how things are. I have notice my growth and change with in myself but I guess that is natural when you go to a place far from home. I sometimes really want to see my parents again and I know I will but not Until the year is over. I hoped that this year would help me improve in many ways and so far it is doing what I hoped it would. I enjoy being here but something keeps tied back home. I met someone form Mexico who is staying in switzerland and not going back once his year is over. This made me wonder, I know I have to back because of Rotary but what else keeps me tied to Australia or to the place I have grown to call home? Is it my family and my friends or is it because I am scared to start a new life somewhere else? My mum did it so why can't I? But so far the answer is yet to make itself clear. I also wonder whether I have had doubts. I don't know because I cannot remember any obivous moments of doubt but I am sure I have. I don't know if I am making sense in what I say but I don't really care because I am sure that someone out there will understand what I mean or what I say. I shall write soon again I hope.
Gaby
